Friday, October 21, 2005

The Sun did not shine yesterday

This morning , my solar heater failed to deliver hot water for me to shower with. In the 15 years I have had the heater installed it has failed to deliver hot water less days that the fingers of my hands. It had rained softly almost the whole day and the sky was overcast the whole day and the solar panel did not get its required amount of heat .
Our beloved Prime Minister's wife breathed her last yesterday morning. I did not know her personally but I had seen her from a distance with her daughter Nori , I had an idea of how much her husband loved her and it is clear, from the huge turn up at her funeral yesterday she was very much beloved.
May Allah grant her joy and peace in her eternal abode..
I also pray our Prime Minster will find the strength to move on . Having lost a dad to cancer while I was only 16, I know the tortures of waiting for the invevitable to happen. When it finally happened, I cried every night silently and alone , for I was at a boarding school, but in the day time, I forgot my grief by putting my whole energy into my studies and the play I was taking part in as lead actress..( a man's role for TKC is an all girl's school)

Goodbye beloved Lady Datin Sri Endon..My heart fills with sadness as I write this

14 comments:

Led said...

Yet, the sign of not shine yesterday reflecting the grief of Datin Seri Hendon. And also grief waiting for my job confirmation.I believe, I have done my best. I have been working so hard all this probationary period. Soon, as if she turn me back on, I shall seek to work in Malacca. Living together with my beloved parent. Be marrying to some one in Malacca. It's such a mean and harsh here in Flextronics Shah Alam.Not the people surround me, but people in my unit. Esp. my sexy and non muslim alike muslimah.She's going to meet me this evening whereas she's having the QBR meeting with Sony Ericsson representative.Yesterday, when I told this to some of my collegues, who have already been offering me some position, internally, without my boss knowledge, they said, it's glad to hear that you are gonna be part of us soon.I am not sure whether that'll be a good new or what??But I like my current position. I have been dealing with lots of challenging situation. And I did happen to afford to deal with them, smoothly.But yet she said, I am not creative enuff??!?!?WTF she's been trying to tell me. Or maybe she have a personal issues that she doesn't want to escalate to my intention?

Suriya said...

Led,if your boss is that toxic, then I do think your thoughts about moving back to kampung is good!Make sure you secure a good job first because sometimes small companies have poor job security and you can find that the company closes down .The bigger companies may be tough but the job security and the benefits are better

Anonymous said...

Hi again,
Thank you for your respond to my query. Your blog brought so much pleasure to my soul. ( I hope one day I can meet the writer of this inspiring blog) Back to the book I read…& I’d like to relate to your topic on death today.

The Author asked GOD
“What about the person who’s sick, but has faith that will move mountain, and believes he’s going to get better…only to die 6 weeks later. How does that square with all this positive thinking, affirmative action stuff?”

& GOD replied
“The person who has ‘the faith to move mountain’ HAS moved mountains for 6 weeks. That may have been enough for him. He may have decided, on the last hour ‘ok. I’ve had enough, I’m ready to go on now to another adventure’ …To a doctor/nurse, death is a failure. To a friend/relative, death is disaster. Only to the soul is death a relief – a release.
All your life you think you are your body. Some time you think you are your mind. It is at the time of your death that u find out WHO YOU REALLY ARE.
The Soul is very clear that its purpose is evolution. That is its SOLE purpose. It is not concerned with the achievements of the body or the development of the mind.
The soul is also clear that there is no great tragedy involved in leaving the body. Instead, the tragedy is being inside the body.
The frustration and anxiety (and afraid of death/dying) comes from not listening to one’s soul.”

- J -

Suriya said...

Dear J
I've always thought of death as just moving on. I usually felt sad for those left behind because they miss their departed ones but I never felt sorry for the ones who died especially if they had a good life.I still miss my dad though.

Anonymous said...

Dear nurelhuda,
i do agree with you..."death IS MOVING ON". My father died from cancer 2 years ago...& I miss him dearly (& always wondering if his soul found his way to visit me). But i was glad he died..for then his body is free from ALL pain. However, my siblings do not understand why i can be so calm....

and nurelhuda...somehow i have this tingling feeling when i am communicating with you.

p.s. I was "re-born" when i found the answer to who "Muhammad" really is. Do you understand what i'm trying to say here???

- J -

Suriya said...

Dear J
I m not sure I knowwhat you mean when you say you found the answer to who Muhamad really is. For me Muhammad is a perfect human and the soul of Muhammad is that of the Nur Muhamad the light of guidance.Throughout the ages the Light of guidance manifested in all the Prophets.
The tingling is your energy J. You find resonance with what I wrote hence your magnetism increases.

Anonymous said...

It was indeed a very sad moment... such love between the two of them.

Al-Fatihah...

dith said...
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dith said...

I forgot my grief by putting my whole energy into my studies and the play I was taking part in as lead actress..( a man's role for TKC is an all girl's school)

You must have been a dominating figure at school to get that man's role, :))

Suriya said...

Dr Roza
I used to be slim and am certainly dark..for some reason,Miss Aida our expat teacher chose for the male characters dark and tall people..well I am not tall but tall for a Malaysian I suppose.Those cast for the female character were all very pretty and fair..I guess I did not fall into the pretty range, only with make up I looked handsome I guess...plus of course I could act..I still can ...I use the skills to teach when I do training....

Unknown said...

Nurelhuda,
I have a question about solar system. probably this is not a good place to ask such question. Anyway, is it expensive to instal a solar system in a private home?
(I'm thinking my sister's house in malaysia).

Suriya said...

Anasalwa 15 years ago I installed Solarmate and it cost me RM5000. Since then I had it serviced 2 times RM100 each time, and it has delivered hot water daily except when it rains the whole day long.
I would consider it cheap with no added electricity bills.
I do not know the cost now

Led said...

My dear Dr,
I went back to Tengkera, and telling my mother I am about to seek for a job in Malacca.For me, it's kinda hard to seek for job here especially for MNC like Flextronics. I used to work alone together with other expatriates. Not much Malaysian (esp malay)Sometimes, I felt a li'l bit awkward dealing with Malay people although I am Malay. It's the mind set that we are talking about. A lot typical malay have these kind of mindset. But yet, I am trying to get used to it as I need to get along with people surround me. i have most of my friend outside Malaysia rather than inside.ALthough if I have bunch of them in Malaysia, they are non Malay.Sometimes, I am a little bit upset with our race. With can't change them totally. But, the most possible is to educate them. I felt pity to experience some of them just like to live 'cukup makan'. Business pun cukup makan.Not dynamic enough.I am not saying that we are less grateful of what ever we have, but then Islam offers us a great attitude in life.The attitude to a dynamic taqwa to Allah and so as our duniawi. Beribadatlah kamu seakan esok akan kiamat, dan carilah rezeki seakan kamu akan hidup seribu tahun lagi(correct me if I am wrong.It has been years I didn't open my hadith sahih al-Bukhary).
Do you think Malacca can offers me what have other places offers?I don't think it will be much higher than that. The cost of living in Malacca also seem to be high nowadays.Land value uprisen so rapidly.

Suriya said...

Dear Led
Yes Malay have their dark side, and their dark side is our darkside too.
My caution about being careful about changing jobs is because it could be difficult to land a good job .and , if you have worked less than 2 years at your first job then the reference from the first job is not worth much. So sometimes it is better to stick to it at least until 2 years are up.